Know thy self. Or better, understand myself and my thought processes, and be ruthlessly intolerant of those thoughts that lead poor decisions. I believe my seeming pathological need for certainty in particular situations and contexts creates fertile ground for self-inhibiting thoughts to sprout up. Thoughts that, if acted upon, inhibit my ability to move forward in my relationships and my profession. I want to understand how to better recognize those situations so that I can better manage my thought processes while in them.
We all do things in particular situations that at the time seem reasonable. But then upon reflection, we realize that what we did was in a word, Stupid. Or at the very least, counter productive. And then I think, damn it, if only I’d recognized the situation I was helping develop and managed my thoughts more accordingly, I would not have said or done THAT.